speechless

I have been a “Nana” for almost three weeks now.

What a blessing it was to spend the first two weeks

of my grandson’s life with him and his parents.

I have been back home for almost a week

and have been thinking every day

that I want to write, to gather my thoughts,

but am having a hard time

putting together words that mirror what my heart feels.

How does one put into words the amazing miracle of life?

Then how does one share what it feels like to witness

your daughter bring new life into this world…

watching her embrace

the blessing and responsibility of motherhood

with such strength and patience?

Can I use words to adequately explain the

joy and thankfulness

in watching my son-in-law,

be amazed by the strength of his wife,

give love and support to her,

and fall deeply in love with a little boy,

they named Jaxson Cole?

How do I explain the way this wee one,

so fresh from God,

opened a window into my soul?

I wonder if my words could possibly describe the emotions

of sharing this new chapter with the love of my life?

Could simple words express the joy in seeing

a sister and brother-in-law

drive through the night and miss work just to

support her sister and hold her nephew 

in the first minutes of his life?

Yes Jaxson, I agree with you…they rock! 

And so does your Mimi Beth, who also came to love on you.

Where do I even begin to tell of the things

God has spoken to me through the birth of this precious gift?

Things like

hope and grace,

faithfulness and compassion,

love and forgiveness,

patience and inheritance.

I hope in the days to come I will find the words, but until then…

‘When words become unclear, I shall focus with photographs.

When images become inadequate,

I shall be content with silence.” 

~Ansel Adams

Jaxson { God has been gracious }

Indeed!

The Lord is faithful to all his promises

and loving toward all he has made.

psalms 145:13